A subsequent Double

I sometimes tend to talk to myself. But, I've started to contradict myself at the same time.

We've all been in situations where we've talked to ourselves. Of course, there's no way to not admit it. We've sat down, and said our thoughts out loud. What relevance does this make at all? Plenty of them.

A chain of events occur, and your thoughts are running rampant, worried about school then the events that had occured. You become scatter brained and you just thinking in your head doesn't work. You begin to speak your thoughts to relieve that pressure within your mind. Is it you speaking? Or is it your mind?

Have you been alone in your house one day, talking to yourself with the frustration and annoyance of the 'chain of events', then after explaining it to yourself, you all of a sudden stop, then argue against it? It's your other personality of you, your other you that really isn't you. It's the side of you that doesn't exist in reality, but dwells as the 'negative' or 'opposite' of what you really are.

For those who never have had that happen to them, your alter-other exists, but only hiding within the deep dark parts of your mind. Where your own thoughts do not wish to go, as there is nothing they believe is tangible to grasp and locate. It'll slowly begin to creep out to the surface, and your thoughts and actions start to be questioned, thought out. Everything you've always done will begin to change slowly as seen fit to the double, and the double then adapts to what you changed and creates a new opposite for its own self.

Let it happen. Sometimes it's good to have a second thought.

A Fool's Game

It's strange how it takes people a while to realize they were played upon. Even I fall upon that curse.

Close out your current thoughts, clear your head. Now, place yourself on a stage as an average townsmen. A joker comes and offers a card trick. With a flick of the wrist and slight a hand, the card that you picked was removed from your pants pocket. You were played as the fool, not the fool that came to you.

Now, let's take a real moment in life. Perhaps, a friendship. You have that one friend that you enjoy, and it seems he enjoys you around as well. Then, he starts to ask things of you, which you unhesitatingly do, because you two are friends. But, you have nothing in return for everything you've done for him. Then, you stop talking to the person, and then you start to think under the surface.

The whole time, he was using you to get things... almost to show off.
The whole time, he earned your trust, and used it against you... because he knew it would work.

Though you were played for the fool, you aren't the fool. The player was the fool, you were the victim.

Gather against Release

I tend to give more than take, because I feel it is right. I feel that if I take, I'm not gaining anything but distrust.

Most of us in our time are all selfish, greedy. We want everything we see in this world, only caring for ourselves. But, what is a better way to gather things that we truly want?

Sometimes it's better to give than to receive. If you give, you gain much more trust and likeness into you from the others around you. If you continuously take, you are taken as a greedy person, and what kind of picture does that paint on your behalf? Not a very good one, right?

I've started to learn from the mistake of always giving, and never wanting to receive anything in return. I've always given people advice, photoshop images, help on anything basically. Sometimes it's not always good to just give rather than receive. You need to gain something in return, rather than being used and the acting of a 'friend'.

Working at a store and/or helping someone that you don't know out is a great example of gathering and releasing. You release your will of helping someone to find a specific item in the store, and, they give you a thanks. May not seem like much, but it was worth it right? Or, even working at a restraunt, serving people their food would gather you a tip from them, because they appreciated your services. And you can use that what you have gained to get what you desire in the material world.

Proportianate your gathering and releasing, half-half, and you'll gain respect and much more to yourself, even if it's not all material things.

The Crab's Way

What is one thing I tend to do over another? Think instinctively, but, question it with another process of thinking.

We tend to do things over another when we do specific things. Mainly, the same things we do on a daily basis. In a small example, let's say we walk our dogs at night. Normal to what dogs do, they'll usually pull to get ahead of you or run off. On instinct, we pull them back. Our regular reaction to this problem.

But, pulling back is not the best method. Mainly because you'd repeat it over and over again, and it wouldn't fix the problem you are having. Think conservingly. What is a good way to solve the problem. Personally, my solution to that problem that I had was to wrap the leash around my hand, and pull my dog close to me to try and tell him to stay with me.

Just because the crab walks sideways like he was made to do, doesn't mean he can't walk forward.

Thirst for Blood

I ask questions such as 'What do I do to acheive what I want?' Because wanting something, then actually going through the steps are two different things.

Blood is a reference to anything we want. We don't have to try and think something violent when we think of 'blood'. Think of it like a variable for something else, something that you've always wanted.

There are many ways to cure that thirst for blood. And it's usually a process. For example, what if your desire is to go and get some sort of fountain drink. The first thing on our mind, is that we need transportation. So we try to find that, so we can achieve that goal. Other things are not as simple, but, everything is a process.

Before trying to just get what you want, whether that's someone special, a material object such as a musical instrument, or anything of the like, don't let your thirst get to you, otherwise, you'll fail everytime you attempt to get those things. Plan things out before hand, and ask yourself, 'What do I need (to do) first?'

Falling Backwards

I can't help myself when I want to continue. What am I supposed to do, reject reality?

Falling backward is one of describing a loss of balance. And this balance could be many things. We'll fall back at the sight of fear, we'll fall back from a failure in front of us.

When I would try and play a song I had been learning, and I would mess up, I fell back and had to get back up, and try and continue to where the song is, assuming I was playing along with it. If you make a big mistake, we fall back so hard, we become injured, and have a harder time standing.

Instead of feeling as if we failed, take that failure and turn it to something big, and heal your injuries that may of been caused by the failure. And then, you'll be able to stand stronger, and more balance, on your more polished feet.

Half to Every Whole

Anything that I do, always has a good thing to it, and a bad thing to it, even if it is all well thought out.

Everything has a half, half a life, half a world, half a table, etc. There is even half a person.

"Look at things in a whole" some would say. I've even said that before, but for even more things that we need to sit down and think about, we have to look at the backdrop of everything, creating a 50% odds of anything.

Let's take a look at StarCraft(yes, I know I reference to this too much). There are good moves, then there are bad moves. No matter what move we can take, or strategy we do, there'll be a 50% chance of it not working. Even though I can throw some tanks into someone's base, what is the chance of them doing some sort of an air attack on me? 50%.

With that being said, for every action, there is always an equal opposite reaction, wether being in a technical physics way, or a common sense way. In common sense, we all seem to look at things we are going to do in the way that "Oh, it'll work my way." With that being said, that's not always true. This goes back to the 50% concept, because, even though it may of worked out, in the end, something bad has happened in return, if not to you.

Before taking action, sit down and think about what would happen in a good sense, and in a bad sense, and plan everything well. Because, there's a 50% chance that it'll fail.